waiting for someone to release me

The blog title is annoying. Ignore the title cause I just put it randomly. So I've mentioned I need a job on my last post and I've got a job now :) I'm being emo yesterday and I have a sudden feeling of missing school! I missed when I have to study in class. It's true! But time couldn't rewind. I'm getting annoyed by my further study thingy and often I cried. It's not easy to achieve something that you want. There's lots of obstacles awaiting for us. I'm afraid I might messed up the whole thing cause I've been longing for this opportunity for a long time. Perhaps I need a lil self-confidence. I have a contagion of fear when I think about future. It's a long way to go..

Cant stop the music

SO hello guys! I'm at the hotel right now. Suppose to go out but I'm lazy. Ahh. I'll blog later

meet the end#2

Goodbye you idiot! hahahaha

I'm freeeee! Officially graduated from Keat Hwa 2.

so my school life ends today. nothing could describe how I feel now. I feel like flyingggg

for chinese paper, I think I'd screwed chinese! Hah!

but who cares for chinese?

the main point is I'm finally free! (for a couple of months). well,still have to further my studies after the result is distributed.

it's time for me to find a job. I need fast money for my camera.

I need job desperately.

$$$$$

meet the end

Tomorrow will be 14th December.

The last day I would be in school. The last day I'm wearing my school uniform.

School life will be ended just like that :)

Its coming to the end of the year. Well..HELLO 2011!

Untitiled#3

I love the Hello part. He's cute! AWW. I've watched this video over 20 times and I just love to see him! Lol.

SPM is not over yet. But I think I've screwed most of my papers :(

I'm worried about my Physics on next week. SIGH

Random #2

Okay, here I am. Back to blogger :)

I would be having my SPM examination which is a major exam for the Form 5 candidates. Everyone is striving hard for this exam. Neither do I. I'm worry about my AddMaths,Physics,Chemistry and History which I could have FAIL em' in a breadth of finger. I hoped my brain is smarter than a computer ;D

So the graduation day is over and today is the last day for school. The long-term holidays started now. I'm leaving my school,my friends and those memories I've made. I wonder what will I turn into after I leave high school. Would I be strong enough to face difficult circumstances? If you know me, you'll know I've always been hiding and never wanted to face the problems I made. I'm not strong enough to make things right. Frankly, I'm lacking of self-confidence. Keat Hwa 2 is my very first and last high school I've been. There are zillions of memories that made my life even wonderful. Although I hate the school rules which annoyed me soo much. Spotcheck every week, for girls,cannot keep fringes, hair cannot exceed 6cm from the ear, stockings must cover till the ankle, no word prints on our white shoes and so on. Ahhh..I'm relieve that I no longer have to follow these rules. Who knows I'll miss these rules? AHA.

Memory is a child walking along a seashore.

You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things

For old lang syne

Goodbye friends!

Finally I've graduated. I'm lazy to post what happened today. On my way to SPM. BYE

Untitled #1

So..HYE!

There's only 27 days left till SPM. Everybody's busy preparing themselves for the battle. I'm still here, blogging! HAH. The graduation date had been confirmed, 11th November. I can't believe that I'm going to end up school life and moving on to the next stage of life. Yes, I'm no more child, I've grown up. I'm going to miss everyone which spiced up my life! I would never ever forget :) SPM is my current challenge I'm going to face. I need my blade and armor, to battle against it, and beyond victory. Bye peeps!

Random #2

So yeah,I'm back again. My results on Trial's aint good enough. I've got 3 failed subs and this irritated me. But overall,I have a lil improvements,far better than before. Lol. I will not blog within this 42 days as SPM is drawing nearer. Supposed to study now! Stay tuned till my next post :)

Somebody suggested me this, Nikon D3100. Not bad huh? The cheapest SLR camera. I'm saving my piggy bank to buy one. Wait for meeee!

D3100

10/10/10

A perfect date today.

Have a nice day!

Just random

My Love. Heh

I've been waiting all day to wrap your hands

I'm super duper extremely hell bored!

Don't wanna lose the love i found

Something happened between us. I don't know why are you being so sensitive about the way I treated you instead of caring what caused me to do so. I knew I shouldn't, but I'm getting extremely pissed off and I couldn't really control my emotions. Thats why. I apologized if I've hurt you. Do you know why we keep arguing? Because both of us have been too stubborn, we could not tolerate each other. Both of us have faults. I hoped you'll think about the main problem we had before going on this relationship. I'm tired of fightings..

pick me on the cell phone

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it’s what you are expected to give — which is everything.

Hey peeps. The blogger is back!

I'm on my SPM trials days ago. I've completed my BM,BI,History,Moral and Chemistry papers. FYI,I've screwed up almost all my papers. By now,I get to rest for 3 weeks till the exam starts again. Maths,Add Maths,Physics and Chinese. I wished I won't fail any of the subs anymore. God,please fulfill my simple request. My request wasn't very much. I just need a pass in all of my subs. *sigh* I never sleep well since the trial started.I can see pimples and eyebags emerging all over my face. heck! I have a dream few days ago, and if that could happen....A DSLR. I was longing so much to buy a DSLR and its great if someone could buy me one. HAH. I think I will be studying for the upcoming days. 3 weeks. So..wish me luck!

Here's a nice song I wanted to share. 你不知道的事-Lee Hom. God,what a touching song!

This love

Maroon - This Love

JiYong(GD) - This Love

I heart GD's This Love more. Lol

AngelaBaby

AngelaBaby. She's from Hong Kong and she's friggin' gorgeous. What a flawless princess.

I guess I don't know my own strength

[ Current tune: Impossible-Shontelle ]

Morning!

I skipped school today and thats why I could blog. (:

I'm stressing up lately cause I haven't finished revising. I'm worried that I might fail in those subs I'm really weak at. I can't think of anything right now. My mind's all about Trial's and SPM. Not in the mood today. Next post would be a longer post. Bye

爱情有时就是如此简单

很多时候，爱你的人近在咫尺，可让你柔肠百转、牵肠挂肚的却往往是另外一个人。你为他流泪、为他悲哀；只讲付出，不要一点回报。你以为这是爱情，其实这只是出于人的本性：得不到的，就是最好的。轻易得到的，往往不懂珍惜。自己伤痕累累的同时我们也在伤害那些深爱我们的人。爱，本来就是一件百转千回的事，说不定有那么一瞬就会幡然悔悟——原来你也在这里。

　　其实，幸福真的很简单。仔细想想，你的身边是不是有这样的人？

　　他清楚地记得你喜欢吃什么口味的零食，两人一起吃饭时会主动地把肥肉、骨头、菜根、配菜挑到自己碗里；

　　心情不好时，他会静静陪着你。却不会追问到底是什么事，他会等你主动告诉他；

　　走在路上，他会让你走在内侧，笑说自己身体强壮，就算撞了也没事；

　　逛街时他会不停问你“这个要不要，那个要不要？”

　　他从来不会觉得你胖，老觉得你吃不饱，吃不好；

　　他盘问你近来的身体状况，关心你的睡眠情况，老觉得你不会自己照顾自己，有时会说你像他女儿；

　　盯着你看时，会用一种很心疼的眼神；

　　每次打电话，都会等你先挂机；每次分别，他都会在背后看着你消失在他的视线外；

　　你无意中说他穿某件衣服很好看，后来你就发现他一直穿它；

　　经常说“只要你喜欢，怎么都行”；

　　从来都是他等你，大老远就面带微笑注视着你；

　　偶尔出其不意的一把抱起你；

　　你肆无忌惮的伤害他，就算他再生气，都不会说一句重话，只会自己和自己过不去，比如没胃口、睡不着；

　　……

如果在你的生活中有这样的人存在，千万不要放弃他，千万不要以为一次次伤害他之后他还会陪着你；不要追求虚无缥缈的爱情，不要尝试飞蛾扑火，不要因为年轻就挥霍爱情。该放手的时候不要犹豫，不要让不值得人一次又一次伤害你。

Just make some laugh

Seungri is acting a woman. HAHAHAHHA

I started to hate everything around me. Why is everyone treating me like that? Tell me. WHY? The adults were taking prejudice no matter what I'm doing. They want me in their own way and this frustrated me. The reason for doing this is for my own good. What good huh? Turning me into a neuropath? I've tried so hard to pleased them when I was a kid. I do what they demanded. But I've grown up now,I have my own thinking! I just hoped that they can really understand me and not forcing me to do something. I knew what's good and bad for me. Couldn't they understand? I have my own feelings..I have my own thinking..I have my own persistence. I never wanted to lied. But if I don't lie,would you respect my decision? I had enough. I'm tired of this world.

I'm about to strip and I want it quick

Trials are drawing nearer. To be honest, I haven't revised my studies and I think it's quite impossible to do it all in one month time. It's getting tough. So this would probably be my last post. I'll be back after the trials..or maybe after SPM. Who knows...Bye!

GD's Shine a Light

Just finished watching Jiyong's concert. Awww! I'm getting more and more addicted to GD.

BTW, T.O.P had released his first single album. Wow. Support!

당신을 사랑합니다

Taeyang's new Solo album had been released. I like the way he dance and sing. Keep going BigBang! Saranghei!

Big Bang vs. Lady GaGa

Sounds hillarious. Lol

Diana mini

Isn't this cute? I'm in love with it when I saw it on the first sight. This is definitely going into my list. :)

i will fight,cause it's my destiny

This post is actually drafted past few days ago. But I would still post it up here ;)

The depression in me didn't fade. I didn't understand why till I realise something. I couldn't accept the fact that was happening,getting afraid when days draw nearer. I'm looking forward for some Breakaway!

Waka waka

Fifa 2010

Gossippppppp

I'm seeking for the Gossip Girl novel. Had been longing to buy since ages. I've tried to search for free novels online but this novel is copyright secured. AHHH!! I want it sooo muchhh!

Dont worry be happy

Be Happy =))

So happiness isn't that the thing that all of us strive to find and keep? Nobody is happy all of the time, but some people are definitely more fulfilled than others. I wonder how they could make it.

I've tried to nap but I failed. I can't sleep even though I felt really exhausted. It's been a week I had insomnia. My eye bags were getting out. I'm alone now in my room,reading 'Eclipse' that I've abandoned for a month, leaving my cell phone behind. As you know,I'll always keep my cell phone by my side. I used to text with him almost the whole day. But not today. Or maybe lately? Idk why. I need to be alone. I knew I'm being blue for these few days due to the results sake. So I've done some researched on Google of '' How to Be Happy? '' This is what I've found :

• Have a cat or a dog.
• Smile a lot.
• Surround yourself with pleasant smells
• Listen to some rousing music.
• Keep a diary.
• Stretch yourself physically/mentally
• Recognise that happiness is a state of mind.
• Swiping your credit card!
• Find someone reliable to talk to.
• Think optimistic.

While for me,a cup of milk would make me better ;)

stop and stare,

Heyy. My results were back. I scored plainly bad at all those subject. Heart-Break. I could failed my Physics by a finger's breadth. *sigh* Poor results. Well for the others, I could only able to get credits. Practically some is sloping down. I failed my English and Additional Maths :( Chemistry would probably be the next. No doubts for being so confirmative,cause I've never been serious in Chemistry. Thought of giving-up but I know I should persist. Parent's day on 1st July. This is going to be my deadline. I knew I've never done well. ohhh pleasee! Trial's on 1 month+ to go. I had to be, or should I say must to be? Yeahh, I really had to put more efforts.

By now,I need someone to talk to. To relief my broken-heart.

En su Bosillo

Hii =)

It's the first day of school ( after the break ). Why do holidays ended so quickly? I found that I'v gone lazier after the break. No idea cause I can't figure out any ways to cope with my laziness. Lol. School was always bored to me. Tomorrow's even BORED! Still stucked with the life's during holidays. No waking up early,no homeworks,no stress,no classes,no nagging and blaa. I heart the days even though it's a bit bored and waste as I've never done anything except dramas and msn. BUT, I had tried to study but it doesn't work. THAT WAS HELL BORED! HECK! Seriously,I hate myself ):

曾以为...

有时候人不会想太多，只要是是自己喜爱的，就勇往直前，不顾一切；

但有时候总会想很多，可是这会不会是一种束缚？一个枷锁？

假如现在你手中拿着一杯果汁，你是否会想到饮水思源？会想到这果汁的制作过程里的功臣呢？

或许现在你用着的电脑，又是否会联想到是谁发明这东西？

往往我们买一样东西只是因为那纯粹的喜欢， 并不是因为其他的原因

更没想过买了拿东西的后果，可能会伤害别人，或是让别人有胡思乱想的空间。。

仔细想想真的没有谁对谁错。

但是又怎样可以避免这样的伤害呢?

难道真的得放弃自己喜欢的东西？

这一切的一切

走了就走，为什么还要留下那该死的伤疤

深深的烙在心里..想磨都磨不掉

是我放不下，还是因为你曾是我最重要的人..

恋爱四大阶段_

第一个阶段：共存。

　　这是热恋时期，情人不论何时何地总希望能腻在一起。

　　第二个阶段：反依赖。

　　等到情感稳定后，至少会有一方想要有多一点自己的时间作自己想做的事，这时另一方就会感到被冷落。

　　第三个阶段：独立。

　　这是第二个阶段的延续，要求更多独立自主的时间。

　　第四个阶段：共生。

　　这时新的相处之道已经成形，你的他（她）已经成为你最亲的人。

　　你们在一起相互扶持、一起开创属于你们自己的人生。

　　你们在一起不会互相牵绊，而会互相成长。

so just hush

In the book of life, the answers aren’t in the back

I've faced many conflicts though. The 2-weeks-holiday seems so unproductive as I'm not doing anything nor going anywhere. I hoped I could make up my mind to study! Why is it so hard to focus on books huh? Trials are just round the corner. I'm craving for more dramas now! C'mon! I need entertainment. *sigh*

想你了，
真的想你了
想你想的落泪了..
T.T

TVXQ versus BigBang :DDD

Physics paper 1 will be shifted to Thursday. wth!

Holidays approching. NEXT WEEK

Out of stuffs. Bye for now!

thought I lost you

I hate Chemistry!

I hate Chemistry!

I hate Chemistry!

A million words couldn't describe how much I hate Chemistry. Have been reading the formulae for the whole day and I could not bear with it anymore. I'd better read Physics -.-

Ohhh. It's Chemistry tomorrow and who wants to die with me? Lol. I'm 100% sure I will blank and skipped lots of the questions. I've screwed up my Chemistry Paper 3. Who cares for the Paper 1 and 2? Sorry mum... ): 2 more days left till exam's over. GREAT! Actually it ended on Wednesday,but PSK and PJK doesn't counted right? Hah! They're just time-consuming papers. I wonder why should we take those random subs?

I'm still longing to get my lolipop phone although I've bought a new phone since last week! No offence,Lolipop just looks so nice and BigBang lays that product! *loves* Personally loves Korea designated cell phones. I'm being bored of SE phones cause I had been using em' since I was 12. I failed to buy cause it's not worth if you use LG products in Malaysia. ughh!

The Lolipop 2. Nice isn't it? :DDD

Seems like I'm out of topic. o.0 Lolssss! Bye

my family,my love

G-Dragon. Awww.. My FAVE

TOP

Seongri

Taeyung

Daesung

GD

BigBang's 'Tell Me Goodbye' Goddd..I'm so in love with Gdragon!

So crazy in this thing we call love

So crazy in this thing we called LOVE. I'm getting really tired and I have to think of a way to get through. Sorry if I ignored you a lot. I don't know what should I do, to minimize the fights. We'll need some space to breathe.. Forgive me

Hola~ FYI, I screwed up my exam! I've done very bad in my history,chinese and Maths. -.-

I don't wish to look at my results. 1 more week to go till the end of exam! Ahhh! I'm stil waiting! I'm getting sick blahh!

淡淡的生活

我喜欢淡淡的感觉，也许是因为一种忧郁？我不知道
我也不知道，我是否快乐。
我只是喜欢淡淡的感觉

我追求淡淡的友谊
是朋友，也不必常相见，偶尔电话中的一句：“你好吗？”

淡淡的。。
因为在淡淡的想你
所以才有了这些淡淡的文字……
一切都是淡淡的
只是那么淡淡一点的...

Not afraid to take a stand

16 more papers to go! -.-

Exam had literally made me gone mad. I haven't done enough preparations so my results were not going to be very nice. ZZZ. Starting next week is going to be the most suffering days I'm gonna go through. Those calculations subs were on next week. Goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

STUDY MODE: ON

I dont wished to step any further

'' Focus focus FOCUS!! '' My mind tells me so,to concentrate on the killers(books). But my heart seems unwilling to concentrate. I've been thinking about him. I missed him lots. :D ughh! So thats why I've been prompted to blog here. Hah. Skipped school and went to get my car license today. Guess what? I passed my test! Oh yeahh. I could drive legally now! I've been waiting for this moment for sooo long. I finally achieved it. *winks* 2 more days till the mid-exam. Talking about exams..SIGH! Now I realize that time was short. Exam on the upcoming Tuesday in a blink of eye. CANDID! I got to off now. OFF OFF OFF! Bye

P/S: I promised I'll never leave you. I PROMISED! :] ILY

gimme some painkiller

Goodbye Love, I'm gonna forget you. urghh!